On a lengthy post in Instagram, the former AOA member said that “she never wanted to leave AOA, but because of one person who hated me, I gave up after enduring her bullying for 10 years.”
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나도 진짜 너무 너무 꺼지고 싶은데 엄마 돌봐야해서..아 또 무뇌라고 연락들 많이 오겠다 맞아요 나 무뇌 맞고 제대로 배운것도 없어 어릴때부터 집안 사정 때문에 돈 벌어야 했거든 아빠 돌아가시고 대기실에서 한번 우니까 어떤 언니가 니 때문에 분위기 흐려진다고 울지말라고 대기실 옷장으로 끌고 가길래 내가 너무 무섭다고 했어 아빠가 곧 죽을거를 생각하니까 난 아직도 그 말 못 잊어 딴 괴롭힘? 딴 욕? 다 괜찮아 상처지만 같은 차 타는 바람에 나중에는 신경안정제랑 수면제 먹고 그냥 나를 재워버렸어 스케줄 제대로 해야하는데 내가 점점 망가지고 있다는 걸 느꼈어 그 언니 때문에 내가 자살시도도 했었거든 그리고 나 아이돌 그리고 배우 인정 안해줘도 괜찮아 진짜 못해 많이 부족하잖아 근데 나는 하면서 너무 행복했고 정말 열심히 했어 정말 사랑하는 직업이야 일로써 스트레스 한번도 안 받았고 솔직히 AOA탈퇴 정말 하기 싫었는데 날 싫어하는 사람 하나 때문에 10년을 괴롭힘 당하고 참다가 솔직히 끝에는 나도 눈 돌아가서 욕 한번이라도 하고 싶을정도였으니.. 결국 AOA도 포기했어 나는 다른 멤버들과의 활동이 재밌었던 애였거든 근데 얼마전에 그 언니 아버지가 돌아가셨어 마음이 너무 아프고 기분이 이상했어 그 아픔 적어도 나는 아니까..장례식장 갔는데 날 보자마저 울면서 미안하다고 하더라 허무하고 무너져 내렸어 마음이..그냥 비워졌어 원망도 사라지고 다 괜찮아졌는데 내가 너무 고장이 나있어서 무서워 공백기..당연히 예상했지 이것 저것 배우거나 우울증이나 공황장애 불안증 치료 하면되겠다 했어 근데 공백기 동안에도 참 많은일들이 생기더라..솔직히 지쳐 맞아 그 네티즌? 인터넷상 사람들이 하는 말처럼 나도 내가 누군지 모르겠고 뭐하는 애인지 모르겠어 꼴보기 싫고 시끄럽고 듣기 싫어도 나도 내가 태어나고 싶어서 태어난거 아니잖아 나도 입이 있고 손이 있고 이제는 나도 내 자신이 컨트롤이 안되고 나 엄마때문에 살아 살아야지..이쁘게 안봐줘도 되구 관심 안줘도 괜찮으니까 조금만..그냥 내버려두면 안될까? 내가 다 잘 못 했으니까
While Mina had not directly named the member in question, it was speculated by netizens that the person Mina is pertaining to is no other than the group’s leader Jimin, getting the hint from Mina’s description that the assailant’s father had recently passed away. Jimin’s father passed away on April of 2020 due to heart attack.
The alleged bully had also told Mina that she was ‘ruining the mood’ by crying after her (Mina) father died from cancer in 2014.
“After my dad passed away, when I cried in the waiting room there was an unnie who dragged me to the closet, telling me to stop crying because it was ruining the mood, and I tried to tell her that I was scared. I tried to tell her that I was scared of my dad dying. I can’t ever forget what she said to me then.”
Seemingly in response to Mina’s words, AOA’s Jimin had a now-deleted story on Instagram with the word “fiction”, which is believed to be a denial of Mina’s accusations.
Mina then also said that she tried to take her own life due to the bullying, sharing an image of multiple scars on her wrist, signaling self-harm, following her initial post.
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소설?이라기엔 너무 무서운 소설이야 언니 흉터치료3~4번 했더니 연해졌어 근데 언니 기억이 안사라져 매일 매일 미치겠어 지민언니 난 법? 뭐 소송? 돈 없어서 못해 정신적 피해보상? 뭐 다 필요없어 할 생각없고 난 그냥 내가 언니 때문에 망가진게 너무 너무 억울하고 아파 힘들어 내가 바라는 건 내 앞에와서 잘못 인.정. 하고 진심어린 사과 한마디면 그거면 될 것 같아 나 괴롭힌 언닌 너무 잘 지내고 있잖아..난 매일이 눈 뜨는게 고통인데 말이야 근데 집은 먹여 살려야해서 말이지 인정 좀 하고 사과 좀 해주라 나도 마음에 응어리진 것 좀 풀자 응?
Mina said (on multiple consecutive SNS posts),
“Because we were in the same car, she forced me to take mood stabilizers and sleeping pills, and I fell asleep. I could feel that I was breaking down bit by bit even though I had a busy schedule. I even attempted suicide because of her.
Honestly, I’m okay even if you people never respect me as an idol or an actress. I know I’m terrible, I’m not good at anything. But I was really happy, and I tried really hard. I still love being in this area of work. I was never stressed about being an idol, and in truth, I never wanted to leave AOA; but because of one person who hated me, I gave up after enduring her bullying for 10 years and at the end of it all, I wanted to turn around and curse at her.
In the end, I gave up AOA. I really had fun promoting as AOA with the other members. But some time ago, that unnie’s father passed away, and I felt so sad and strange. At least I know exactly how that feels. When I went to the funeral she came to my crying, telling me she was sorry. It was so unfulfilling, and my heart really broke down.”
Everything emptied itself after that. I felt okay, I let go of the blame but by then, I was already too broken. I’m scared. I’m having some time to myself on hiatus now and I knew. I wanted to try learning a few things, maybe try to receive treatment for my depression and anxiety. But it turns out, even during a hiatus a lot of things happen.
I’m so tired. You know how the netizens say things online? How I don’t know who I think I am, no one knows what I’m trying to be, no one wants to see my face or hear me talk and all that, but despite that, it wasn’t like I was born because I wanted to be born, and I have a mouth, I have hands, but I can’t control myself any more either and I need to live for my mom.
It’s fine if you don’t see me fondly and it’s fine if you don’t pay me any attention; can’t you just leave me alone? Because I get that everything is my fault.
I can’t ever forget what you said to me, what you did to me, I remember everything, even if it’s fuzzy. Whenever I remember all of that, I take medication and hang on. But I think the thing with my dad will stay with me forever. To unnie, it was just something you spit out at the spur of the moment but to me, it was a real scar.
Even now, no one knows, not me or the other members, why did you hate me so much?
AOA’s agency, FNC Entertainment, has yet to issue a statement regarding these accusations, while Mina’s current agency Woori Actors Entertainment has reportedly told Korean media outlet News1 that these were “personal” issues, but said that they will keep an eye on her.
A report from Korea JoongAng Daily says that an insider told them that “She is currently on medication due to her panic disorder, and we are closely watching her.”
Kwon Mina debuted with AOA in 2012 along with Seolhyun, Choa, Chanmi, Jimin, Yuna and Hyejeong. Choa left AOA in 2017 due to mental health issues, while Mina also left in 2019, saying that she will pursue acting instead after not renewing her contract with FNC.
The five-piece AOA continued on competing for the Mnet’s show Queendom last year, and had returned to the K-pop scene with their 6th Mini Album ‘New Moon’. -HallyuLife.com